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“Helpless By Ourselves”
—by Anonymous Male, age 23

"I have read some really touching stories from this site and I feel challenged to share my story with you. I hope that someone reading it will identify with my situation and subsequently be helped in finding deliverance from the bondage of sexual addiction."

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I am 23 and what people refer to as a standing brother. I am a Youth Group Leader, House Group Leader and Lay Pastor in our local congregation, I have a beautiful fiancee' who is 20 and plan to marry hopefully next year. I graduated from College earlier on this year and am now in gainful employment. From this description I am what people refer to as a successful Christian and I am seen as an example by many.

Despite all of this success, I have had serious problems with my sexual life. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour in 1999 and have lived a happy and stable Christian life until early this year when traces of my past life begun to spring up. I lived a highly immoral life before I gave my life to Christ—sleeping with virtually anyone that I had opportunity with (friends, maids, cousins and girlfriends).

I lived a life of addiction to masturbation until I gave it all up to follow Jesus Christ. I then experienced freedom. However, things started going wrong for me, down the line, I begun to fantasise and lust after women. I began to kiss women and I actually ended up in bed with one. I have, however, had sexual encounters with a couple of them which did not result in intercourse, but all that I know is that I sinned against God.

In trying to justify my behaviour, I took a hard stance towards immorality and decided to take a new walk with God. I managed for a while but failed as I ended up in masturbating and wild delight in pornographic and related stuff. In short I have had serious problems and it is only now that I am getting to experience some amount of victory.

I decided that I was going to fight my battles and make sure that I overcome and this begun with an acknowledgement of my problem and circumstances.

All in all my sexual problems have had severe effects on my relationship with God and with other people. For me to experience freedom I made up my mind that I was going to stop. I decided that I was going to fight my battles and make sure that I overcome and this begun with an acknowledgement of my problem and circumstances. I attended a Christian meeting in which the speaker spoke of the need to get back to God. I did that the very day, though freedom was not automatic.

What I want to say is that no amount of personal effort brings freedom in sexual addiction, no amount of rules and regulations on oneself bring about deliverance from sexual problems. And much worse, no amount of self-pity and self condemnation will help one overcome. What I have found to help is a situation where you acknowledge your helplessness and trust in the greatness of the Lord.

I have tried to stop these habits on my own but it never works. What works is a total reliance on God.

Every time I am tempted, I say "God I have no strength". When I fail to overcome and fall, I say "God have mercy on me" and I say "God help me to overcome next time".

I have ceased to try and stop and all that I have resolved to do is to look to God. The story of Joshua and Caleb is the best example, while situations show that you are like a grasshopper in the eyes of the sexual addiction, deep inside God speaks to you and says you are well able to overcome.

In my situation, I have continued to serve God. I have continued to love God. And I have continued to speak against sexual sin knowing well that:

"He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
—Philippines 1:6

There's HOPE for you

Remember this:

"Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God"
—John 1:12

It is this right that is our guarantee that we are well able to overcome any addictions. As you read this today, put your trust in the Lord. Put your faith in the Lord and you will overcome. I pray that the Power of God moves in your life. AMEN

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