"Being an adult today in a society where lies were told about my birth and biological mother. Now I have to share a story with you. It may be put on this site, because it may help someone who has experienced the same ordeal. I was given up by my mother when I was two years old and to this day I could not tell you what she looks like or anything about her physical features. She took me to an orphanage and set me on the steps and made me a promise she would return the same day and pick me up. She never returned and today I am 56 years old and she has never laid eyes on me again. I hated her for a long time and just recently had to forgive and forget what she did. It was not easy. It was very difficult in forgiving her.
The questions in my heart was "how could a mother who carried a child for nine long months and not abort the baby leave a living human being and not return and see if this child is being cared for..." This was devastating to me. When I had my children, my fear was "someone is going to steal my children". I was "overprotective" with them. They only went if I could see them in the view. Many things will bring on different emotions and concerns and worries. I have not aborted one or had a miscarriage, but my greatest hearts desire was to protect my children. When I look at the human race today who leaves their babies in trash cans, fast food restaurant bathrooms, dumpsters, doorsteps, and other unknown places, even abortion, my heart weeps and mourns for the life that was taken and could not have a chance to live.
On the other hand I do not understand what is really going on in the mind of a person. I have five grandchildren and I told my children if you get pregnant, don't abort or abuse the child, because he or she did not ask to be born. They came because God has given life to one seed and the responsibility is laid upon your shoulders to be responsible for the welfare of that child and if not give it to me and the Lord and I will rear it the best way we know how. He made a promise He would provide my every need. Even though I am rearing a grandson, I made sure he was not neglected or abused...
Being the heart felt woman I am, I don't like seeing children neglected. They are little people with big hearts and wants, desires, all running wild... Thanks for reading and letting me express how things were in my life. When you have no biological connections it causes some major problems, but they can be worked out for our good because of an omnipotent God who knows all things."
the above story sent in by Dorothy C. Rayner, age 56
Posted May 2001
